SCREAM !!!!

Normally people want to scream when bad or terrible things happen to them. Normally, one would want to vent when they are facing a problem or are surrounded by a confusing situation. Usually someone seeks close friends for advice when they are in trouble or in deep dilemma. In such circumstances, it is understandable when one feels lonely, upset or miserable. It is ok when you want to scream to let it all out. It is ok when you can’t focus in your work. In such a situation, going boxing or running till your muscles tear apart is an absolutely expected thing. And usually it is completely ok if all what you want to do is to run away from all of it.

What is not normal and is considered really weird is when this feeling comes to you when something good is happening in your life. It becomes very confusing when you are passing through an exciting adventure or facing happy events and you still feel that you want to scream, not out of happiness, but rather out of fear. It becomes really frightening when every part of your body is excited about everything that is going on, yet your mind can not stop spinning-even for a minute-in your head and your heart beat passes a hundred while sitting down in your chair. It is very confusing when almost every aspect of your life has promise of a bright future, yet you feel an invisible hand reaching within your chest, squeezing your heart incredibly tight that you literally feel it stops beating.

When all this happens to you, and if you are a logical person, without even actively thinking about it, your mind tries to find explanations, starts to wonder why you are filled with all these emotions that certainly contradict themselves. And the first thing that comes to your mind is “What -for God’s sake- is wrong with you?” Then this is followed by another question wondering if there is something wrong in general. You wonder if this is your basic instinct screaming telling you to watch out from some unknown hidden danger. You wonder if there is something horrible about to happen- which you can not see- and that this is the way you are being warned. So without further delay, your mind spins faster and faster, thinking that by doing so it will be able to protect you from that hidden danger, an action the consequences of which are expected. You stand on the top of the highest building you know and from the deepest innermost part of your lung, you scream out loud, “Enough!!!”

What you do not know and is very interesting, is that if you slowed down-even for as little as a few seconds- if you just slow down and try to look at the whole situation from a different perspective, a perspective that has a sign written on it saying, “It is the change”, you will realize how all this anxiety just exists inside your head as a result of being subjected to a relatively new experience. You will realize that the whole situation is much more simple than any of those complicated scenarios that your mind has been jumping into. You will realize- if you slow down- that all this anticipation and fear will fade away before you can even blink an eye. Then all of a sudden that urge to scream out loud would just disappear and be replaced by a loud laugh and a cry of amusement that is full of life, asking for more and an attitude to enjoy every moment of this change.